I Choose Happiness :)

hammipott:

baliktarin natin:

“KAYO nga pero meron ba kayong COMMUNICATION?”

I know i have so much to do at work but I need to let this one out….

First day in the office after a 4-day vacay in the Philippines.. I’m supposed to review tons of accounts, but i ended up spending the whole afternoon exchanging emails with a friend.. Which ended in a deal about this coming Friday night - in which he’s so confident that he’s gonna win.. :p We’ll im confident too.! I’m not gonna lose. ^^,

It’s always been like this for how many years - i can’t really remember when this all started.. Telling stories, exchanging thoughts and opinions, sharing songs, even plans for the future, and of course, the tattoo designs that we plan to get someday… We’re each other’s confidant, and we acknowledge that. It helps a lot to have someone whom you can tell almost anything.. Almost. :p

I used to have feelings for him.. Emphasis on the phrase “used to”. <i hate using the term “feelings” but I cant think of another word right now> :p I used to hope/wish someday it’ll be US. I used to wonder “what if”, “why not”.. I used to cry when he tells me there’s a new girl.. LOL - but seriously I did, back then.. Simple “ohayo” and “gdnyt” used to complete my day.. Most of my happiness used to depend on him.. Again, used to.

 I dont know what happened but I suddenly realized that i have stopped with those “used toS” above. I guess i finally came to the point of acceptance <cheesey> which I’ve waited for so long.. Believe me I had that thing for him for so looooonggg, it’s almost unbelievable. :) Now it’s just normal. I told him he’s like one of my girl BFFs.. Because i can tell him almost anything.. He told me I know about him more than his brothers do.. I’m happy with this.. with our friendship. I’m no longer expecting or hoping or waiting.. and I like this feeling..

There’s just one thing that I dont quite understand. Why is it that when we’re with our friends, we can’t act like that? We talk almost everyday (almost, when there’s a chance to access email).. but when we’re out with our friends, it is as if we dont know much about each other.. Is it because we just talk via email and sms? Or is it because we dont want our friends teasing us and making a big fuss about us being close? I never asked him about this, but one day I plan to.. I dont know if he thinks about it too, or if he cares at all. Sometimes I just cant help but think WHY. What’s wrong with other people knowing that we’re close like BFFs :p? Or am I the only one who’s thinking that we are? That our friendship is special?

I dont know.. I dont want to think too much. Overthinking is not good.. Right now, Im hungry and I just heard the roar of my tummy.. And my left ankle hurts since yesterday, I dont know why.. So many things which I dont know WHY.. but i have to let them be. I guess all i need to do is appreciate the good in them and be happy…

Right?

P.S. I’m gonna win our deal on Friday night. Im 101% determined. - will post about this on Friday night :p

dear you„

i miss you.. i wish i could tell you, but i cant. but someday i will. i hope.

dont misunderstand.. im not in love with you. i just… like you. i think you’re special. and fun to be with..and i want to get to know you better. you say most people find you scary? :p well i dont. i think it’s just the way you carry yourself.. tough guy?.. but deep inside i think you’re fragile..

confused with what the hell im talking about? i dont get it either. you have this effect on me which i really hate, but at the same time i really like.. i’ve been counting the reasons for me to stop liking you.. one: your vices (drinking and smoking). two: you dont want commitment. three: you’re a jerk. but then… one: i drink and smoke too, and i like spending time with you. two: when i realized that i like you, i wasnt thinking of commitment either.. besides i’ll be here for only 2 years.. and there goes number three: with this kind of thinking, i’m being a jerk too.

what the??!!.. i dont really get it. again„ dont misunderstand. i am not in love with you. i just LIKE you. it’s different. i know there’s a big difference. it’s just that sometimes„ it’s kinda confusing.

#damn.

hyukhyukhyuk <3

akinlangtoforeveeeer:

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“KUNG BOLA KA NG BASKETBALL, HINDI KITA NASYU-SHOOT.”

nami-miss kita.. sobra T_T